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&&&&Annawillbewonderingwhatshappenedtome.&&&&Wecouldmovetoanothertable,Isaid,butIknewitwasover,destroyedbyamalevolentforcebeyondmycontrol.&&&&Seeyoulater,saidJesscheerily.&&&&AndthatwasthelasttimeIsawKathy.IfIwereher,Idstillbereconstructingthedialogueinmyhead,writingitdownandgettingfriendstoactitout,lookingforanykindofcluethatwouldhelpmemakesenseofthatbreakfast.&&&&YouneverknowwithJesswhethershesbeingsharporlucky.Whenyoushootyourmouthoffasfastandasfrequentlyasshedoes,youreboundtohitsomethingsometime.Butforwhateverreason,shewasright:Kathywouldnthavehappenedwithoutmusic.Shewassupposedtobealittlepick-me-up,myfirstsincethebandbrokeup-myfirsteverasanon-practicingmusician,becauseIwasalreadyinabandwhenIlostmyvirginity,andIvebeeninabandeversince.Soaftersheleft,Istartedtoworryabouthowthiswasevergoingtowork,andlikewhetherIdbeinsomefuckingoldfolkshomeinfortyyearstellingsomelittleoldladywithnoteeththatREMsmanagerhadwantedtorepresentmyband.WhenwasIevergoingtobeaperson-someonewithmaybeajob,andapersonalitythatpeoplecouldrespondto?Itsnofuckinguse,givingsomethingupiftheresnothingtotakeitsplace.SayIdjustkepttalkingaboutthebookswewerebothreading,andwednevermentionedmusic…Wouldwestillhavegonetobed?Icouldntseeit.Itseemedtomethatwithoutmyoldlife,Ihadnolifeatall.Mymorale-boosterendedupmakingmefeeltotallyfuckingcrushedanddesperate.&&&&MAUREEN&&&&WedidntreallythinkanythingofMartinmissinghisbreakfast,eventhoughbreakfastwasincluded.Iwasgettingusedtotheideathatonceortwiceaday,somethingwouldhappenthatIwouldntunderstand.IdidntunderstandwhatJesshadbeenuptothenightbefore,andIdidntunderstandwhytherewasastrangewoman-agirl,really-sittingatourbreakfasttable.AndnowIdidntunderstandwhereMartinhadgone.Butnotunderstandingdidntseemtomatterverymuch.Sometimes,whenyouwatchacopsandrobbersfilmonthetelevision,youdontunderstandthebeginning,butyouknowyourenotmeantto.Youwatchanyway,though,becauseintheendsomeonewillexplainsomeofthethingstoyouifyoupaycloseattention.IwastryingtothinkoflifewithJessandJJandMartinaifIdidntgeteverything,Itoldmyselfnottopanic.Idwaituntilsomeonegavemeaclue.Andanyway,Iwasbeginningtoseethatitdidntreallymatterevenifyouunderstoodalmostnothing.Ihadntreallyunderstoodwhywehadtosaywedseenanangel,orhowthatgotusontothetelevision.Butthatwasallforgottenaboutnow,apparently,sowhymakeafuss?Imustadmit,Iwasworriedaboutwhereeveryonewasgoingtositatbreakfast,butthatwasntbecauseIwasconfused.IjustdidntwantMartintothinkusrude.&&&&AfterbreakfastItriedtotelephonethecarehome,butIcouldntmanageonmyown.IntheendIhadtoaskJJtodoitforme,andheexplainedthattherewerelotsofextranumberstodial,andsomeyouhadtoleaveout,andIdontknowwhatelse.Iwasntbeingcheeky,usingthetelephone,becausetheotherstoldmeIcouldcallonceadotherwise,theysaid,Iwouldntrelaxproperly.&&&&Andthetelephonecall…Well,itchangedeverything.Justthosetwoorthreeminutes.Morehappenedtomeinmyheadduringthetelephonecallthanduringallthattimeupontheroof.Anditwasntasiftherewasanybadnews,oranynewsatall.Mattywasfine.Howcouldhenotbe?Heneededcare,andhewasgettingcare,andtherewasntmuchelsetheycouldtellme,wasthere?Itriedtomaketheconversationlastlonger,and,fairplaytohim,thenursetriedtohelpmemakeitlastlonger,Godlovehim.&&&&Butneitherofuscouldthinkofanythingtosay.Mattydoesntdoanythinginthecourseofaday,andhehadntdoneanythingonthatparticularday.&&&&Hedbeenoutinhiswheelchair,andwetalkedaboutthat,butmostlyweweretalkingabouttheweather,andthegarden.&&&&AndIthankedhimandputthephonedownandthoughtforamoment,andtriednottofeelsorryformyself.Loveandconcernandtherestofit,thethingsthatonlyamothercanprovide…ForthefirsttimeinhislifeIcouldfinallyseethatthosethingswerenousetohimanyway.Thepointofmewasexactlythesameasthepointofthepeopleinthecarehome.Iwasprobablystillbetteratitthantheywere,becauseofthepracticeIdhad.ButIcouldhavetaughtthemalltheydneedtoknowinacoupleofweeks.&&&&WhatthatmeantwasthatwhenIdied,Mattywouldbefine.AndwhatthatmeantwasthethingIdbeenmostafraidof,eversincehewasborn,wasntfrighteningintheleast.AndIdidntknowwhetherIwantedtokillmyselfmoreorless,knowingthat.Ididntknowwhethermywholelifehadbeenawasteoftimeornot.&&&&Iwentdownstairs,andIsawJessinthelobby.&&&&Martinscheckedoutofthehotel,shesaid.&&&&AndIsmiledatherpolitely,butIdidntstop,andIkeptwalking.IdidntcarethatMartinhadcheckedoutofthehotel.IfIhadntmadethetelephonecallIwouldhavecared,becausehewasinchargeofourmoney.&&&&Butifhedgoneoffwiththemoney,itwouldntmattermuch,wouldit?Idstaythere,ornot,andIdeat,ornot,andIddrink,ornot,andgohome,ornot,andwhatIdidordidntdowouldntmattertoanyoneatall.AndIwalkedformostoftheday.Dopeoplegetsadonholidaysometimes?Icanimaginetheydo,havingallthattimetothink.&&&&Fortherestoftheweek,Itriedtokeepoutofeverybodysway.Martinwasgoneanyway,andJJdidntseemtomind.Jessdidntlikeitmuch,andonceortwiceshetriedtomakemeeatwithher,orsitonthebeachwithher.ButIjustsmiledandsaid,Nothankyou.Ididntsay,Butyourealwayssorudetome!Whydoyouwanttotalktomenow?&&&&Iborrowedabookfromthelittlebookcaseinreception,asillyonewithabrightpinkcovercalledPawsforBethaboutasinglegirlwhosecatturnsintoahandsomeyoungfella.Andtheyoungfellawantstomarryher,butshesnotsurebecausehesacat,soshetakesawhiletodecide.AndsometimesIreadthat,andsometimesIslept.Ivealwaysbeenfineonmyown.&&&&AndthedaybeforeweflewhomeIwenttoMass,forthefirsttimeinamonthorso.Therewasalovelyoldchurchinthetown-muchnicerthanoursathome,whichismodernandsquare.(IveoftenwonderedwhetherGodwouldevenhavefoundours,butIsupposeHemusthavedonebynow.)ItwaseasierthanIthoughtitwouldbetowalkinandsitdown,butthatsmostlybecauseIdidntknowanybodythere.Butafterthateverythingseemedalittleharder,becausethepeopleseemedsoforeign,andIdidntknowwherewewereveryoftenbecauseofthelanguage.&&&&Igotusedtoit,though.Itwaslikewalkingintoadarkroom-anditwasdarkinthere,muchdarkerthanours.Afteralittlewhile,Istartedtobeabletoseethings,andwhatIcouldseewerepeoplefromhome.Nottheactualpeople,ofcourse,buttheTenerifeversions.TherewasawomanlikeBridgid,whokneweveryoneandkeptlookingdownthepewsandsmilingandnodding.Andtherewasafellawhowasalittleunsteadyonhisfeet,evenatthattimeofday,andthatwasPat.&&&&AndthenIsawme.Shewasmyage,onherown,andshehadagrown-upsoninawheelchairwhodidntknowwhatdayitwas,andforalittlewhileIstaredatthem,andthewomancaughtmestaringandsheobviouslythoughtIwasbeingrude.Butitseemedsostrange,suchacoincidence,untilIthoughtaboutit.AndwhatIthoughtwas,youcouldprobablygointoanychurchanywhereintheworldandseeamiddle-agedwoman,nohusbandinsight,pushingayoungladinawheelchair.Itwasoneofthereasonschurcheswereinvented,probably.&&&&MARTINIhaveneverbeenaparticularlyintrospectiveman,andIsaythisunapologetically.Onecouldarguethatmostofthetroubleintheworldiscausedbyintrospection.Imnotthinkingofthingslikewar,famine,diseaseorviolentcrime-notthatsortoftrouble.Imthinkingmoreofthingslikeannoyingnewspapercolumns,tearfulchat-showguestsandsoon.Icannowsee,however,thatitshardtopreventintrospectionwhenonehasnothingtodobutsitaroundandthinkaboutoneself.Youcouldtrythinkingaboutotherpeople,Isuppose,buttheotherpeopleItriedtothinkabouttendedtobepeopleIknew,andthinkingaboutpeopleIknewjustbroughtmerightbacktowhereIdidntwanttobe.&&&&Soinsomewaysitwasamistake,checkingoutofthehotelandgoingoffonmyown,becauseeventhoughJessirritatedthehelloutofme,andMaureendepressedme,theyoccupiedapartofmethatshouldneverbeleftuntenantedandunfurnished.Itwasntjustthat,either:theyalsomademefeelrelativelyaccomplished.Iddonethings,andbecauseIddonethings,therewasapossibilitythatImightdootherthings.Theyddonenothingatall,anditwasnotdifficulttoimaginethattheywouldcontinuetodonothingatall,andtheymademelookandfeellikeaworldleaderwhorunsamultinationalcompanyintheeveningsandascouttroopatweekends.&&&&ImovedintoaroomthatwasmoreorlessidenticaltotheoneIdbeenstayingin,exceptItreatedmyselftoaseaviewandabalcony.AndIsatonthebalconyfortwosoliddays,staringattheseaviewandbeingintrospective.IcantsaythatIwasparticularlyinventtheconclusionsIdrewonthefirstdaywerethatIdmadeapigsearofjustabouteverything,andthatIdbebetteroffdead,andifIdiednoonewouldmissmeorfeelbadaboutmydeath.AndthenIgotdrunk.&&&&TheseconddaywasonlyveryslighavingreachedtheconclusionthepreviouseveningthatnoonewouldmissmeifIdied,Irealizedbelatedlythatmostofmywoesweresomeoneelsesfault:IwasestrangedfrommychildrenbecauseofCindy,andCindywasalsoresponsiblefortheendofmymarriage.Imadeonemistake!OK,ninemistakes.Ninemistakesoutofsayahundredopportunities!IgotpercentandIstillfailedthetest!Iwasimprisoneda)duetoentrapment,andb)becausesocietysattitudestoteenagesexualityareoutmoded.Ilostmyjobbecauseofthehypocrisyanddisloyaltyofmybosses.Soattheendofthesecondday,Iwantedtokillotherpeople,ratherthankillmyself,andthatsgottobehealthier,surely?&&&&Jessfoundmeonthethirdday.Iwassittinginacafereadingatwo-day-oldDailyExpressanddrinkingcafeconleche,andshesatdownoppositeme.&&&&Anythingaboutusinthere?shesaid.&&&&Iexpectso,Isaid.ButIveonlyreadthesportandthehoroscopessofar.Haventlookedatthefrontpageyet.&&&&Fun-nee.CanIsitwithyou?No.&&&&Shesatdownanyway.&&&&Whatsallthisabout,then?Allwhat?This…bigsulk.&&&&YouthinkImsulking?Whatwouldyoucallit,then?Imsicktodeathofyou.&&&&Whathavewedone?Notyouplural.Yousingular.Toi,notvous.&&&&Becauseoftheothernight?Yes,becauseoftheothernight.&&&&Youjustdidntlikemesayingyouweremydad,didyou?Youreoldenoughtobe.&&&&Imawareofthat.&&&&Yeah.Sogetoverit.Takeachillpill.&&&&Imoverit.Ivetakenone.&&&&Lookslikeit.&&&&Jess,Imnotsulking.YouthinkImovedoutofahotelbecauseyousaidIwasyourfather?Iwould.&&&&Becauseyouhatehim?Orbecauseyoudbeashamedofyourdaughter?Both.&&&&ThisiswhathappenswithJess.Whenshethinksyourewithdrawing,shepretendstobethoughtful(andbythoughtful,Imeanself-loathing,whichtomeistheonlypossibleoutcomeofanyprolongedthoughtonherpart).IdecidedIwasntgoingtobetakenin.&&&&Imnotgoingtobetakenin.Getlost.&&&&WhathaveIdonenow?Fuckinghell.&&&&Yourepretendingtobearemorsefulhumanbeing.&&&&Whatdoes&remorseful&mean?Itmeansyouresorry.&&&&Forwhat?Goaway.&&&&Forwhat?Jess,Iwantaholiday.Mostofall,Iwantaholidayfromyou.&&&&Soyouwantmetogetpissedupandtakedrugs.&&&&Yes.Iwantthatverymuch.&&&&Yeah,right.AndifIdoIllgetabollocking.&&&&Nope.Nobollocking.Justgoaway.&&&&Imbored.&&&&SogoandfindJJorMaureen.&&&&Theyreboring.&&&&AndImnot?Whichcelebritieshaveyoumet?HaveyoumetEminem?No.&&&&Youhave,butyouwonttellme.&&&&Oh,forChristssake.&&&&Ileftsomemoneyonthetable,gotupandwalkedout.Jessfollowedmedownthestreet.Whataboutagameofpool?No.&&&&Sex?No.&&&&Youdontfancyme?No,Somemendo.&&&&Havesexwiththem,then.Jess,Imsorrytosayit,butIthinkourrelationshipisover.&&&&NotifIjustfollowyouaroundalldayitisnt.&&&&Andyouthinkthatwouldworkinthelongterm?Idontcareaboutthelongterm.Whataboutwhatmydadsaidaboutlookingoutforme?AndIdhavethoughtyoudwantto.Icouldreplacethedaughtersyouvelost.Andthatwayyoucouldfindinnerpeace,see?Thereareloadsoffilmslikethat.&&&&Sheofferedthislastobservationmatter-of-factly,asifitweresomehowindicativeofthetruthofthescenarioshedimagined,ratherthantheopposite.&&&&Whataboutthesexyouwereoffering?HowwouldthatfitinwithyoureplacingthedaughtersIvelost?Thiswouldbeadifferent,youknow,thing.Route.Adifferentwaytogo.&&&&WepassedaghastlylookingbarcalledNewYorkCity.&&&&ThatswhereIgotthrownoutforfighting,saidJessproudly.TheyllkillmeifItrytogoinagain.&&&&Asiftoillustratethepoint,agrizzled-lookingownerwasstandinginthedoorwaywithamurderouslookonhisface.&&&&Ineedapee.Dontgoanywhere.&&&&IwalkedintoNewYorkCity,foundalavatorysomewhereintheLowerEastSide,puttheTVpagesoftheExpressovertheseat,satdownandboltedthedoor.ForthenexthourortwoIcouldhearheryellingatmethroughthewall,buteventuaIpresumedshedgone,butIstayedinthereanyway,justincase.ItwaseleveninthemorningwhenIboltedthedoor,andthreeintheafternoonwhenIcameout.Ididntresentthetime.Itwasthatsortofholiday.&&&&JJThelastbandIwasinbrokeupafterashowattheHopeandAnchorinIslington,justafewblocksfromwheremyapartmentisnow.Weknewwewerebreakingupbeforewewentonstage,butwehadnttalkedaboutit.&&&&WedplayedinManchesterthenightbefore,toaverysmallcrowd,andonthewaydowntoLondonwedallbeenalittlesnappy,butmostlyjustmoroseandquiet.Itfeltexactlythesameaswhenyoubreakupwithawomanyoulove-thesickfeelinginthestomach,theknowledgethatnothingyoucansaywillmakeanyfuckingdifference-or,ifitdoes,itwontmakeanydifferenceforanylongerthanlikefiveminutes.Itsweirderwithaband,becauseyoukindofknowthatyouwontlosetouchwiththepeoplethewayyoulosetouchwithagirlfriend.Icouldhavesatinabarwithallthreeofthemthenextnightwithoutarguing,butthebandwouldstillhaveceasedtoexist.Itwaitwasahouse,andwewerethepeopleinit,andwedsoldit,soitwasntoursanymore.Imtalkingmetaphoricallyhere,obviously,becausenoonewouldhavegivenusafuckingdimeforit.&&&&Anyway,aftertheshowattheHopeandAnchor-andtheshowhadanunhappyintensitytoit,likeadesperatebreak-upfuck-wewalkedintothisshittylittledressingroom,andsatdowninaline,andthenEddiesaid,Thatfeelslikeit.Andhedidthisthingthatwassounlikehim,sonotjustlikeEddie:hereachedouteitherside,andtookmyhandandJesseshand,andsqueezed.AndJessetookBillyshand,justsothatwedallbejoinedforonelasttime,andBillysaid,Fuckyou,queerboy,andstooduprealquick,whichkindoftellsyouallyouneedtoknowaboutdrummers.&&&&Ihadonlyknownmyholidaycompanionsforafewweeks,buttherewasthesamekindofsickfeelingonthewayfromthehoteltotheairport.&&&&Therewasabreak-upcoming,youcouldsmellit,andnoonewassayinganything.Anditwasforthesamereason,whichwasthatwedtakenthingsasfaraswecould,andtherewasnowhereforustogo.Thatswhyeveryonebreaksup,Iguess,bands,friends,marriages,whatever.Parties,weddings,anything.&&&&Itsfunny,butwhenthebandsplit,oneofthereasonsIfeltsickwasbecauseIwasworriedabouttheotherguys.Whatthefuckweretheygoingtodo,youknow?Noneofuswereover-qualified.Billywasntrealbigonreadingandwriting,ifyouhearwhatImsaying,andEddiewastoo,like,pugilistictoholddownajobforlong,andJesselikedhisspliff…TheonepersonIhadnorealconcernsaboutwasme.IwasgoingtobeOK.Iwassmart,andstable,andIhadagirlfriend,eventhoughIknewIdmissmakingmusiceveryfuckingdayofmylife,Icouldstillbesomethingandsomeonewithoutit.Sowhathappens?Afewweekslater,BillyandJessegetagigwithabandbackhomewhoserhythmsectionhadwalkedoutonthem,Eddiegoestoworkforhisdad,andImdeliveringpizzasandnearlyjumpingoffafuckingroof.&&&&Sothistimearound,Iwasdeterminednottofretaboutmyfellowbandmembers.TheydbeOK,Itoldmyself.Itdidntlookthatway,maybe,buttheydsurvivedsofar,justabout,anditwasntmyproblemanyway.&&&&Inthetaxitotheairportwetalkedsomeaboutwhatweddone,andwhatwedread,andthefirstthingweweregoingtodowhenwegothome,andshitlikethat,andontheplanewealldozed,becauseitwasanearlyflight.AndthenwegotthetubefromHeathrowtoKingsCross,andtookabusfromthere.Itwasonthebusthatwestartedtorecognizethatmaybewewouldntbehangingoutsomuch.&&&&Whynot?saidJess.&&&&Becausewehavenothingincommon,saidMartin.Theholidayprovedthat.&&&&IthoughtitwentOK.&&&&Martinsnorted.Wedidntspeaktoeachother.&&&&Youwerehidinginatoiletmostofthetime,saidJess.&&&&Andwhywasthat,doyouthink?Becauseweresoulmates?Orbecauseoursisnotoneofmymostfulfillingrelationships?Yeah,andwhatisyourmostfulfillingrelationship?Whatsyours?Jessthoughtforamoment,andthenshrugged.&&&&Withyoulot,shesaid.&&&&TherewasasilencethatwaslongenoughforustoseethetruthofJesssobservationasitappliedtoher.Andluckilyforus,Martinspokeupjustaswewerestartingtoseehowitmightpossiblyapplytoustoo.&&&&Yes.Well.Itshouldntbe,shouldntit?Areyougivingmethepush?Ifyouwanttoputitlikethat.Jess,wegotthroughtheholiday.Andnowitstimetogoourseparateways.&&&&WhataboutValentinesDay?WecanmeetonValentinesDay,ifyouwant.Wesaidweddothat.&&&&Upontheroof?Doyoustillthinkyoumightthrowyourselfoff?Idunno.Itchangesdaybyday.&&&&Idliketomeetup,saidMaureen.&&&&IsupposeValentinesmustbeaprettyimportantdayforyou,Maureen,saidJess.Shesaiditasifsheweremakingconversation,butMaureenrecognizedthedisguisednastinessanddidntbothertorespond.JustabouteverythingJesssaidcouldbebouncedrightbackather,butnoneofushadtheenergyanymore.Welookedoutthewindowatthetrafficintherain,andatAngelIsaidgoodbyeandgotoff.AsIwatchedthebusdriveaway,IcouldseeMaureenoffertheothers,evenJess,herpacketofPolomints,andthegestureseemedkindofheartbreaking.&&&&ForthenextweekIdidnothing,prettymuch.Ireadalot,andwanderedaroundIslingtontoseeiftherewasanysignofabadjobforme.OnenightIblewtenpoundsonaticketforabandcalledFatChance,whowereplayingintheUnionChapel.Theystarteduparoundthesametimeasus,andnowtheyhadadecentdeal,andtherewasabuzzaboutthem,buttheywerelame,inmyopinion.Theystoodthereandplayedtheirsongs,andpeopleclapped,andtherewasanencore,andthenweleft,andIwouldntsayanyofuswasricherfortheexperience.&&&&Iwasrecognizedonthewayout,byaguywhomusthavebeeninhisforties.&&&&Allright,JJ?hesaid.DoIknowyou?IsawyouattheHopeandAnchorlastyear.Iheardthebandhadsplit.&&&&Youlivinghere?Yeah,fornow.&&&&Whatyoudoing?Yougonesolo?Yeah,thatsright.&&&&CoolWemetateightintheeveningonValentinesDay,andeveryonewasontime.Jesswantedtomeetlater,likeatmidnightorsomething,forfulltragiceffect,butnooneelsethoughtitwassuchagoodidea,andMaureendidntwanttotravelhomesolate.Iranintoheronthestairsonthewayup,andtoldherIwasgladtohearshewasthinkingabouttravellinghomeafterwards.&&&&WhereelsewouldIgo?No,Ijustmeant…Lasttimeyouwerentgonnagohome,youknow?&&&&Not,like,onthebus,anyway.&&&&Onthebus?Lasttime,youweregoingtogetofftheroofthequickway.Iwalkedmyfingersthroughtheairandthenplungedthemdownwards,asiftheywerejumpingofftheroof.Buttonight,itsoundsasthoughyoullbetakingthelongwaydown.&&&&Oh.Yes.Well.Ivecomeonabit,shesaid.Inmyhead,Imean.&&&&Thatsgreat.&&&&Imstillfeelingthebenefitoftheholiday,Ithink.&&&&Righton.&&&&Andthenshedidntwanttotalkanymore,becauseitwasalongwayup,andshewasshortofbreath.&&&&MartinandJessarrivedacoupleofminuteslater,andwesaidhello,andthenweallstoodthere.&&&&Whatwasthepointofthis,actually?saidMartin.&&&&Weweregoingtomeetupandseehowwewereallfeelingandallthat,saidJess.&&&&Ah.Weshuffledourfeet.Andhowareweallfeeling?Maureensdoinggood,Isaid.Arentyou,Maureen?Iam.IwassayingtoJJ,IthinkImstillfeelingthebenefitoftheholiday.&&&&Whichholiday?Theholidaywejusthad?Helookedatherandthenshookhishead,withamixtureofamazementandadmiration.&&&&Howaboutyou,Mart?Isaid.Howyoudoing?ButIcouldkindoftellwhattheanswertothatquestionwasgoingtobe.&&&&mecicommeca,Tosser,saidJess.&&&&Weshuffledourfeetsomemore.&&&&IreadsomethingIthoughtmightinterestyouall,Martinsaid.&&&&Yeah?Iwaswondering…Maybeitwouldbegoodtotalkaboutit&&&&Soundsgoodtome,Isaid.Imean,maybeweshouldcelebrateanyway,youknow?Celebrate?saidMartin,likeIwasnuts.&&&&Yeah.Imean,werealive,and,and…Thelistkindofranoutafterthat.Butbeingaliveseemedworththepriceofaroundofdrinks.Beingaliveseemedworthcelebrating.Unless,ofcourse,itwasntwhatyouwanted,inwhichcase…Oh,fuckit.Iwantedadrinkanyway.Ifwecouldntthinkofanythingelse,thenmewantingadrinkwasworthcelebrating.Anordinaryhumandesirehademergedthroughthefogofdepressionandindecision.&&&&Maureen?Yes,Idontmind.&&&&Itdoesntlooktomelikeanyonesgoingtojump,Isaid.Nottonight.&&&&Isthatright?Jess?Shewasntlistening.&&&&Fuckme,shesaid.JesusChrist.&&&&Shewasstaringatthecorneroftheroof,thespotwhereMartinhadsnippedthewireonNewYearsEve.Therewasaguysittingthere,exactlywhereMartinhadsat,andhewaswatchingus.Hewasmaybeafewyearsolderthanme,andhelookedrealfrightened.&&&&Hey,man,Isaidquietly.Hey.Juststaythere.&&&&Istartedtowalkslowlyovertohim.&&&&Pleasedontcomeanycloser,hesaid.Hewaspanicky,neartears,draggingfuriouslyonasmoke.&&&&eonbackoverandyoucanjoinourgang.Thisisourreunion.Itriedanothercoupleofsteps.Hedidntsayanything.&&&&Yeah,saidJess.Lookatus.WereOK.Youthinkyourenevergoingtogetthroughtheevening,butyoudo.&&&&Idontwantto,saidtheguy.&&&&Telluswhattheproblemis,Isaid.Iwalkedalittlecloser.Imean,wereallfuckingexpertsinthefield.Maureenhere&&&&ButInevergotanyfurther.Heflippedthecigaretteovertheedge,andthenwithalittlemoanhepushedhimselfoff.Andtherewassilence,andthentherewasthenoiseofhisbodyhittingtheconcreteallthosefloorsbelow.Andthosetwonoises,themoanandthethud,Iveheardeverysingledaysince,andIstilldontknowwhichisscarier.&&&&欢迎您转载分享并保留本文链接：
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